Posts tagged Out of Character
March wasn’t too fun at all. If it wasn’t the unexpected death of a close WoW friend, an offline friend lost both his Mother and Father within days of each other. Then you threw me the curveball of my Father’s paranoia getting the best of him and throwing a wrench in life at home. Friends on Twitter began to bicker and disagree and that world even became a ball of chaos. Finally, some jerk rear ended my parked car and just last week someone broke into it and stole my wallet. I got distracted, discouraged and went into my own little world hoping for some answers as to what the hell is going on.
But you know what? I’m not going to be scared, put things on hold and cutting myself off from my friends. Whoever the hell blasted me in the face with this negative energy needs to seriously move the fuck back. This month will be better. And if it’s not I’m going to see the positive in things like I was before this whole month log daisy chain of crap began.
Plus dudes, I got a new car!
Keepin’ it positive,
And I ain’t talkin’ about no wrath spammin’ Druids, either.
About a month ago, I’d been finding it extremely difficult to pull myself away from gaming. I was literally coming home from work and logging in and playing until my eyes got droopy and it was time to go to bed. Bedtime also was beginning to get later and later, which for me hinders my work as I’m up extremely early in the morning. There always seemed like something that needed to be done in game. Farming to make gold, LFR to get loot for the Fay-family, PvP to pwn newbs, old school runs for transmog gear.
Other than WoW or random games in general, I was doing nothing except going to Game Nights here and there. A few things began popping up and it was like a gift from The Old Gods. Some of my real ID friends were starting to get on mah nerves somethin’ fierce. There were days I’d log and literally get a barrage of RealID whispers before I could even spawn. What was relaxing was becoming a Dr. Phil session instead of “me” time! If it wasn’t, “oh hay, can you help me really quick with…” it was, “can I borrow some of…” or just wanting advice about random stuff. I’m not opposed to helping anyone out but sometimes it gets to be a lot especially when they same people won’t talk to you for days or weeks on end and expect you to drop everything at the drop of a dime to do some lame task that I wouldn’t get a thank you for nevermind a bit of reciprocation.
I knew I had to change the cycle and balance out work, play (which includes gaming and blogging) and friends and fast. So I made a list of things that I’d been putting off or sweeping to the side.
I have a pile of books that I’ve been itching to read for the longest as well as a list of “to reads.” So I finally said fuck it and went to Barnes and Noble and picked them up. It was a small kick to my budget but it felt really good to treat myself to them.
From there I did the same for movies and friends and set out on a little mission to get my little buns off and away from the computer and on the way to finding my offline chi.
I then posted an ad on Facebook for a few buddies to see some movies that were coming out..
That ad? FACEBOOK GOLD. I got an almost overwhelming response from my friends that I wasn’t anticipating at all. I’d usually just avoid going altogether because I can’t stand going to the movies on my own. Being that person chillin’ watching a movie alone isn’t my idea of a fun time.
I also started, setting an alarm (lol @parental controls) for tasks/reminder warnings of things that need to be done around the house and I trying to keep WordPress or my notepad near me instead of shoving them into the back of my head only to forget about them. Also, avoiding games with chat clients in them so that I don’t get sucked into doing things that a) I don’t feel like doing b)I don’t need to be doing and c) involve losing personal time for.
Disclaimer: I don’t intend for this to be an A to Z. It’s just sort of happening that way. Organic n shizz
As I was chatting with my Chiropractor, who also does some blogging and website “stuff” the other day, I realized one thing about my blog. I’m not completely authentic and truthful. I’m assuming that I’m semi-engaging because people are reading this blabber and coming back, but other than my Faylentine’s Day and some of my Lore, I’m really not achieving some of what I set out to accomplish on this blog.
What am I trying to accomplish exactly?
Yes, I want to make all you folks on the interwebs laugh and relate. At the same time I want all the nerds and geeks out there to be able to shed their shells and be out to the world and be proud of who they are.
Why aren’t you doing it then?
Well, probably because for some reason I still have this little devil on my shoulder screaming at me that the internet is still a really scary place with bad people in it. It’s all over the news, right? Some girl gets kidnapped for running away from home to hang out with some guy she met online. Another kid refuses to go to school because he’s being cyber-bullied on his Facebook page. The reason why the obesity rate is so ridiculously high is because we sit at our computer all day. A dude dies in a computer lab or his home due to bingeing on his favorite MMO. Sure all that stuff can happen because it’s happened before but that doesn’t necessarily mean that it’ll happen to you, duh!
So how do you fix this?
Well for me personally, I guess I’ll share with you more of who I am OUTSIDE of gaming and Warcraft shiz. I kind of chuckled to myself the other night while watching some guildies that I’ve known for years in LFR because I realized that I’ve been in my current guild for almost 2 years now and a handful of them have seen what I look like or know my first name. Why? Because I, much like most of us don’t want to be judged for what I look like in a world of avatars and killing dragons. Plus, other than running dungeons and pwnin’ newbs, why does my personal life or appearance even have to come into play? I think this is also the same reason why people are complete jerks on the internet and in Warcraft, but that’s a whole bag of worms and a blog post in itself.
I will maintain that some stuff deserves to be kept private or vague. But I think this was a good first step. The girl up there in that photo? Yes, that’s totes me. Artfully airbrushed armpit and all. Sup alliteration?
Why Faylentine’s Day? Because today is going to be about me. I don’t talk about my feelings much mostly because I’m scared of being viewed as weak or being judged. But whatever, I really don’t give a shit because this needs to be done. Holding onto all of this resentment is incredibly unhealthy and blocking a lot of good from coming into my life. I’ve known this for a long time but it’s time for me to finally accept it
My bags and my outfits go hand-in-hand because I literally don’t throw anything away because I see some sort of use for most of it. There would be many nights that I couldn’t sleep that I’d farm old dungeons for the perfect dress to wear while sitting in Dalaran on my perch or to do the weekly raid and LOL at how I could still out dps people in some random set of greens or old tier that I’d equipped for the sole purpose of being fashionable or making a little extra gold.
I can almost always be found in-game in some random outfit but these are the three that I love and currently rock the most. Far left what I refer to my “Waiting in Que” set in which I’m usually sitting in the middle of whatever major city I just happen to be in at the time or flying around doing Archaeology. Middle is the Vestments of the Summer set. Flamin’ hot and ready to go! And I may or may not have made a ton of gold dancing in this one day. Why? Dunno. But I’ll gladly accept any donations. Far right is my current transmog set of Mana-Sphere Shoulderguards, Robe of the Great Dark Beyond , and Cord of Belief with a Fanged Tentacle dagger. The outfit can be farmed in old Outlands dungeons and for someone that has the worst luck with drops, they were rather easy to attain. And the dagger is from the End Times heroic from that sneaky old Bishop Guy.
And with everything there are always rules with Fayshion. Number one, your hair must always be a Troll-hawk and dyed to match your outfit. Number two, whatever pet and/or mount that accompanies you must fit either the theme or color of your outfit.
NOW GO OUT THERE AND WERK IT IN THE NAME OF FAYSHION!
The goal is to be done with the challenge this week so I won’t be littering your readers and Twitter feeds in 5 days. Plus, I’ll have other topics to blog about! Fingers crossed.
Day 15 is simple. My desktop situation on the other hand, changes almost weekly because I like to keep things fresh. Leave it to me to make something as simple as a desktop image really complicated At any rate, I get the majority of my images from Desktop Nexus. The variety there is pretty large plus its a really great community to be a part of.
This is my current image and I chose it obviously for my love of graffiti art but also it reminds me of playing old Nintendo games with my brother when we were little ones. Simpler and less complicated times.